A random moment of thoughts....

As I am sitting here listening to my sad song and being the creep I sometimes am on facebook and looking at peoples pages(hey we all facebook stalk people) I have the overwhelming feeling to express the hope to find that one true love. I feel like you can tell when a couple is truly in love with one another. I most of the time can tell in the way a guy looks at a girl. For those men out there that dont show emotion and cant let us know that they have feelings, for them to look at a girl with those eyes that really say I dont know what I would do without you gives my heart hope. I feel so bad for some people cause I see that lacking in their eyes and that breaks my heart. It breaks my heart when I hear from people that they are content with feeling that their relationship is ok, it is not great but ok. I hope everyone out there boy or girl feels and knows that should not settle for something or someone. I know this is going to sound corney but we all deserve the love of edward and bella ha ha I cant believe I just typed that, but where someone would put another before themselves and where they couldnt imagine a world without that other person, we all deserve that, I deserve that. We should all have that, we all need that. That feeling to be wanted is so important but I feel so simple to fulfill when you have that someone that sees you with the eyes that you see them. In short we all deserve the best and should not settle for anyone or anything!

He has arrived

After 6 long months in Korea my brother is finally home...for a month. He was given time off I believe for the new baby. It was so awesome to see Rosie run up to her dad and give him a big hug and say "daddy you are home". Its cool to see those people that you never thought would have kids, have one that not only do I love with my whole heart but to see that love in his eyes is incredible.

Small note... I hope that everyone keeps the troops, soliders, any military person and their families in your thoughts and prayers. You really sign your life over and sometimes I dont think they keep their interest best at heart. Having someone in surely makes you more aware. Please keep them on your minds!!!

Some of my favorites from 2009...

2009 had its ups and its downs and its happy moments and its sad moments. It was a big year. My brother got married, joined the army, went to boot camp for 6 months and then shipped off to korea. I became single after 6 years which was interesting and one of the harder things. We did lots of fun things this summer. We went to the aquarium and peach days. We had a 4th of July party. Rosie turned 2 finally even though she has the attitude of a 13 year old. We went to the pumpkin patch and temple square and lots more things. It was a good year but I am happy to see 2009 go and say hello to 2010.

Chris and Rolandas Wedding

My birthday party and dinner

The two bugs after the easter egg hunt

Chris' graduation in south carolina

My beautiful 4th of July cake

Rosies 2nd birthday

The aquarium with tate and rosie The zoo with the familyShe loves shoes

At peach days in brigham

The pumpkin patch

Halloween.... On our way to gardner village

TWILIGHT!!!

Temple square... it was cool to see how much she loved the lights

Merry Christmas!

She has finally arrived....baby Meilee

This is Meilani. She was born Jan 5, 2010. She weighed a whole 5lbs and was only about 18 inches. She is a little early but we are glad she came and is safe.

It is something incredible to experince the birth of a new child. The more incredible thing for me is to think she is not even mine and I love her with every part of who I am. Its kind of a scary thing to even think that I could love something more than I love her and my niece and nephew and I know someday I will. I am no where in my life ready for a baby but I if I had one of them I would have no problem with it and my heart would be so full. I love their little faces and little hands and the way they look at you is one of the best things. I am a little byast(if that is how you spell it) but think she is a beautiful baby.

I love this picture cause it shows how little she really is. When the nurse put the shirt on her, it seriously covered her whole body. She is just a tiny baby.