Sunday, October 11, 2009

Oh to those who have had a broken heart

At this moment, yes at 12:47 am (I have mondays off) I am laying in bed with the tear stained cheeks of someone who needs to learn to let go. Not only let go of a love, but of things that can't be anymore. Pictures for one are a bittersweet thing. They allow us to look at the past and remember the happy, sad, funny, etc moments in our lives and let other remember them with us but then they remind of us happier times then now, and of moments that we will never get back like our youth and high school when we had no worries like seriously we had no worries in high school and what worries we did have they were so minor to the lives we live now. I reorganzied some things in my closet today and came upon my old cheer uniforms(although I am missing one which I am bitter about and can't let go cause someone didn't feel they needed to return it) but I was thinking what do I do with them?! They are a part of my highschool experience and I want my kids to see them one day but do I keep lugging them around or do I do something cool with them like make a blanket( like my good friend natalie had done which I need to ask her who she had do that and if I could get their number), or something decorative to help keep the memory alive. I need to learn to let go. I am going to work on letting friends go that will always be a friend but not the friend I so truly wish they were, the exboyfriend that I miss everyday, the memories of highschool and friends and just being a kid and the many other things that I am keeping bottled up inside me because those are things that you can't have back and you cant change what happened. They need to be put away and kept somewhere that when the moment is right they are brought out but other than that they are just something that happened once, good or bad.